Notes 9/15

David Deida describes three stages of love for women:

• 1st Stage:  Woman finds love so she feels like a woman.
• 2nd Stage:  Woman finds love and becomes her own woman.
• 3rd Stage:  Woman finds that she IS LOVE, in the form of woman.

And I know I can live without him, and maybe that's the lesson, to live without anchors... but it's watching the shrinking of the shoreline as I move out to sea that is killing me.

Anchors provide security for a time, but are never meant to be permanent.
I have always looked for permanence. I believed that was love, security, safety. If something is continuous, you can count on it... safety.

I try to look at and analyze. He will never be just someone that I used to know... there will always be more between us, that is fact.

Intuitively I know he's hurting, is he hurting more because of this... yes and no. He did what he thought he needed to for him... I respect that.

I so rarely give myself the choice. Like in theatre how they say, "play the opposite." I don't really play the opposite. I was thinking about this this morning,