Man! I love it when the weekend is so good that it feels longer than it was.
There were shenanigans to be certain this weekend!
I had much trouble getting right once I realized that I truly need to make some changes within my apartment. But I feel much better about it now!
I feel like I understand that I can do it in a slow process instead of all at once.
I tend to do that when I get wind of something and I want it.
It happened last fall as well. I saw what I wanted to changed and the desire to take a match to everything became powerful.
When I felt a bit of that this time, it passed quickly.
What came up quite strong was the desire to change my hair; Dye it a radical color or chop it short. This would not be the best choice and I would probably regret it soon after it was done. But I am glad that that feeling passed as well and I have come to a very calm place today. What really did it was starting something small.
There is SO much that i want to re-tool in my personal surroundings so starting some place simple really helped me to be able to calm down and feel more at peace.
Change doesn't happen over night. And generally when it does, it comes with pain and can be very intense. So I don't think there is any thing wrong with taking it a little slower this time and really being sure of the changes I am making.
I love the idea of making the DVD's less prominent. It would very nice to get one of those cabinets to hide them and the TV from IKEA, but that seems it would be a little too big for my one bedroom place.
There is also the thought to get two chairs or a couch for readings and sessions vs the love sac. It would be nice to have the desk by the window as well.
I am hesitant to buy anything or put too much effort into moving things around because I know I want to work on moving into a house and I want to save money... but I think moving things around could be very beneficial. Change up the energy and help to reformat some things. It is an idea... a good Idea I think! I liked it last time when things were moved around...
I like being by the window, which Is why I want the desk by the window... but I like the tv by the window too.
I just want to be by the window but not everything can be there.
I think I will start with cleaning and reorganizing what is present and maybe through that, I'll be able to get a clearer picture. Not only of what to keep, but also if anything needs to be moved.
It's a nice feeling to have. getting rid of the things that no longer serve and making room for the new.
I am excited for it.
perhaps I will start my blog this week as well! I am happy about the way that things are going for me. Loving not being in a show and ready for the down time so I can get things very very on track for myself.
I really have earned all of these blessings and I have a great deal to be thankful for. I want to keep that in mind extra extra big this fall as things move forward. I am in a really good place, I have healed much and I am being allowed to heal a great deal more. THAT is lovely!
I don't need to worry or stress about it, I just need to be present for it so I can step into it.
